Ding-a-Ding

In a few hours time, June is ending.
Goodbye June, and Hello July.
Which left to 1, 2, 3, 4, 5 more months before 2009 ends.
Sound fast yah?
And i am only left with about 3 more months in this company!!
Wahaha.. I guess some of you might get irriated with me of my counting down. :p

I guess i'll be going to school Next Year Jan.
To Murdoch - Marketing and The Media?
Or to SIM - Multimedia Technology and Design?
Full or Part time?
Now i 2 courses to choose.
I have to slowly narrow down my choices.
In a dilemma.
Hate making choices. =(

Anyway, yesterday and today is a stress free day.
The people from North, South and West is not around. =D
But i still have to do backup for Shari as she MC-ed today.
Sians. Hope nothing much.
I can slowly take my pace. ^^



HOROSCOPE For Today~
Love: Your luck is about to change.
Career: While we may not be able to control all that happens to us, we can control what happens inside us.
Health: Drink plenty of fluids to keep your teeth and bones healthy.
Wealth: You should avoid overspending.

A day for myself..

Its stay at home day.
Weather is so cooling ~
Very nice to slack at home. Keke~

Did nothing much.
Surfing online clothings.
Listen to musics.
Watched Marry Me.

I'm thinking of changing a new blogskins already.
My twitter at the side look awful~
Dont ya think so?
But i am damn lazy to create a new skin now. HAHA!
Gonna find new inspiration again~

Changed of Songs in my playlist.


如果我是片叶子。
我便可以随着风，自由飞翔。。。

Happy 1st Year. (:

27 June 09 marked the 1st year for us.
I swear this date sux. WAHAHA!
So hard to remember can..
27062706.. Grr, sometimes i tot is 2607. -__-"


Yesterday after work, headed down to AMK Hub to meet my dear.
Watched Transformer, Revenage of the Fallen.
Show lasted for 2hr 30min.
I feel that the show is as nice as before. ^-^
Bumblebee still very funny loh. HAHA!

Back to this house after the show.

As for today...
Dine at Kuishin-Bo @Suntec City.
It our breakfast cum lunch cum dinner 3-in-1.
So we ate very full~!
Walked around Suntec awhile to digest the food in our stomach.
Then headed back home ~



Just something surprise for him.

Death of Micheal Jackson

Sheau Wei smsed in the morning "Latest new Micheal Jackson has died."
In my mind, i thought which new Micheal Jackson.
After which, then i got her meaning, Latest news, Micheal Jackson has died."
Kind surprised.
So i went to google search. (I guess the search rate is high for the day.)
- http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/us_obit_michael_jackson
He died at the age of 50.

Facebook was flooded with comments on Micheal Jackson.







Still, hope he rest in peace.
His song, "You are not alone" will be my favorite song from him. =)

Emo Lunch

Sobs, kelian me today emo lunching. =(
Sheau wei on leave and Shari on half day leave.

Went to packet at Suzuki coffeeshop fried rice + Ice Lemon Tea.
Sitting at my desk eating and blogging.

Its been quite sometimes since i eat food from Suzuki coffeeshop.
Thinking back, when i first came in not long.
I always went there to packet with Desmond, Fifi, Marni then back to Cafeteria and eat.
Now eating at the West Coast Market food until i sianx already.
1 week 5 days lunch, eat here and there almost the same thing. HAHA!

Half more day today to go~
Its thurs today too~
JIAYOU! =D


P/S: Feeling relaxed cos no government today. WAHAHAH!

Speechless

Suddenly, the enthusiasm disappears~


-Well, just keep for memory, for my own keepsake i guess.


付出再多。最后换来还是空。

曹格 - 借我一輩子

From Cao Ge's new album 《 超級4th場 》.
My current favourite song. ^-^


No MV.

借你一輩子 借你我剩下的日子 答應過你的那些事
請你讓我去證實 用你左手的無名指)
借你我肩膀 借你溫暖 借你美好的時光
借你胸膛 借你瘋狂 借你放肆的飛翔
想不想永遠留著這些　不用問永遠到底有多長
我知道生命太短 所以不要有遺憾 如果妳你和我一樣
時間像個陀螺般的旋轉 差點把我們的愛打亂
我不要再這樣 我不要再流浪 我只能這麼想
這一次我看見了生命的答案

就藏在你身上 讓我完整的一半 最甜蜜的負擔
借你一輩子 借你我剩下的日子
答應過你的那些事 請你去證實 對天使發誓
給我一輩子 給我你所有的日子
寫下兩個人的故事 用你左手的無名指
我們都曾經在愛裡迷失方向 以為獨自生活
就不會受傷 不受傷 no no no no
我曾經把你錯過 我不要把你錯過
我認定你 一定會是我最美的結果

Cheered up!

Little things just makes one feel better~ ^-^



*For your teabreak* From Shari

Is this true about guys?

男人的爱一辈子只付出一次。

每一个男人都是这样，他可以对每个女人说“我爱你”，但他一辈子只会爱上一个女人，只有一个。　

女人需要的是一个关怀她，爱她，可以让她依靠，保护她一辈子的人，当她遇到一个男人时，爱的死去活来，山盟海誓。因为种种原因的 分开，她不会再记得他，或者说不会记得那么深刻。因为当她遇到一个更好的男人时，她会拿两个人来比较，她会觉得遇到更好的是她的幸运。

但男人不是这样，当他爱上一个女人，真真正正的爱，他不会在爱上任何一个人。当这段感情失败后，他会把这段记忆放在心里，把这个女人放在心底。

原来一个男人可以把很多女人放在心里，但一辈子只有一个女人可以在他心底,.无论他以后会再相处再多的女人，他都会清楚的知道，自己最爱的是谁。　　　

无论以后他遇到的女人多么优秀，他也不会改变。因为他心底的女人是他的支柱，他不会用她和任何一个人相比，他认为这种比较是愚蠢的，他一辈子只会爱她一个。放在心底的女人，永远的伤痕。男人都是爱面子的，也许他平时会活的很潇洒，但在一个人孤独的时候，他会放下所有的尊严，放声痛哭，思念唯一的她。男人的爱一辈子只会付出一次，你得不到，因为你不是。　　 　　

男人的痴情，女人的多情, 只有死才是终

Rude Sales Assistant

Today i went to a photo shop at AMK Jubilee.
And i swear i have never use such an unhappy tone to talk to a sales assistant before!
The auntie was like not friendly at all can~!
And she still dare to blame me for not giving her the correct info, which is like wat the hell lah.
She herself got it messy, still dare to come and blame me.
I was really not happy at all.
I guess after she heard me giving her the unhappy tone, then she tried to talk abit nicer to me. =/

Check up today is good.
And i wont need to go back there again.
Doc say i am "discharged" already..

AND I FINALLY FOUND THE THING THAT I'VE BEEN LOOKING HIGH AND LOW TODAY!! =D
Even though i said i give.
But my heart dont let me give it at all~ hehe..
希望做出来的成果是美的。
也希望是值得的。
意义最重要！

时间还过得真快。。。

Hmm..
I wonder why nowadays the days pass so fast.
I do mean weekdays too.
And june is ending soon...

Feel like the weekend is short.
Yesterday morning, went to tk blood test at TTSH.
Monday gonna have check up again.
Hope this the LAST!

Then went AMK to shop alot.
URGH! And i cant find the stuff i want!
Wasted trip. =(

Back home and watched 我们结婚吧！
I know its quite a backdated show.
Erm, the show is not that bad.
Some part quite lame lea.
I am now at EP7, waiting for the romantic scene, i hope.

10pm+, dear came over to my place and accompany me back to his house. ^-^
Supper @Mcdonald.
Nite movie - Naked weapon.
Not bad~

Woke up at 2pm today. -.-"
Lunch @LJS.
Back his house and played PSP for awhile.
Dear also show me his dad new pet!


A baby love bird.
So cute~
It scared of us~
I wanted to sayang it, and it kept moving away~
Dear hold it and it shit on his hand~ LOL!
He say he could feel the bird trembling.. :O

After which, we went to Kovan for dinner @Sakae Sushi with his mum and dad.
Bought Durians back home~


Yummy~ soft yellow meat and sweet.
I am a weird girl.
I only eat durian fruits.
But i dislike to eat durian cakes or other related.
And i find them smelly. HAHA!


My new bag from Charles & Keith.
Present from boyfriend for 1st Anni.
He kept saying the black bag that i got can be thrown away.
What a pig! :@


ANYWAY, I WISH ALL FATHER A HAPPY FATHER'S DAY! =D

I give up~ =(

No luck.
No idea.
Wasted trip.
I give up.
Forget it... =(

陈文华 - 那一年

早在某年某月的某一天
我把我脆弱的心交给了你
你却装著不懂
又笑了一下
点点头接受了我这份痴心

过了多年多月又多了一天
追求梦想把我们拉得好远
然后和平之下
我们说再见
偶而也会头点当做连线

那一年我现在还记得
跑在原野上我们的天真
冬天时候一起吃冰淇淋
在你窗外唱歌我觉得快乐
那一年我现在还想著
成年的我们能不能回到从前
长大后才发现
我心里每个痕迹都是你

A True Touching Story

I received this email from John.
Find it really touching.
Almost cried because its disheartening.
I forward it to some people.
And the girls commented that they almost cried/cried after reading too. :'(

The story is long but do take some time to read.


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Just two years after our marriage, hubby brought up the idea of asking Mother to move from the rural hometown and spend her remaining years with us. Hubby's father passed away while he was still very young. Mother endured much hardship and struggled all on her own to provide for him, see him through to a university degree. You could say that she suffered a great deal and did everything you could expect of a woman to bring hubby to where he is today. I immediately agreed and started packing the spare room, which has a balcony facing the South to let her enjoy the sunshine and plant greenery. Hubby stood in the bright room, and suddenly just picked me up and started spinning round and round. As I begged him to put me down, he said: "Let’s go fetch mother." Hubby is tall and big sized and I love to test on his chest and enjoy the feeling that he could pick me up at any moment put the tiny me into his pockets.



Whenever we have an argument and both refuses to back down, he would pick me up and spin me over his head continuously until I surrendered and begged for mercy. I had become addicted to this kind of panic-joy feeling.



Mother brought along her countryside habits and lifestyle with her. For example; I am so used to buying flowers to decorate the living room, she could not stand it and would comment: "I do not know how you young people spend your money, why do you buy flowers for? You also can't eat flowers!" I smiled and said: "Mum, with flowers in the house, our mood will also become better." Mother continues to grumble away, and hubby smiled: "Mum, this is a city-people’s habit; slowly you will get used to it." Mother stopped saying anything. But every time thereafter, whenever came home with flowers, she would ask me how much it costs. I told her and she would shake her head and express displeasure. Sometimes, when I come home with lots of shopping bags, she would ask each and every item how much they cost, I would tell her honestly and she would get even more upset about it. Hubby playfully pinched my nose and said: "You little fool, just don't tell her the full price of everything would solve it."



There begins the friction to our otherwise happy lifestyle.



Mother hates it most when hubby wakes up early to prepare the breakfast.. In her view, how could the man of the house cook for the wife? At the breakfast table, mother facial expression is always like the dark clouds before a thunderstorm and I would pretend not to notice. She would use her chopsticks and make a lot of noise with it as her silent protest.



As I am a dance teacher in the Children's Palace and am exhausted from a long day of dancing around, I do not wish to give up the luxury of that additional few minutes in the comfort of my bed and hence I turned a deaf ear to all the protest mother makes. From time to time, mother would help out with some housework, but soon her help created additional work for me. For example: she would keep all kinds of plastic bags accumulating them so that she sell them later on, and resulted in our house being filled with all the trash bags; she would scrimp on dish washing detergent when helping to wash the dishes and so as not to hurt her feelings, I would quietly wash them again.



One day, late at night, mother saw me quietly washing the dishes, and "Bam" she slams her bedroom door and cried very loudly in her room. Hubby was placed in a difficult position, and after that, he did not speak to me for that entire night. I pretended to be a spoilt child, tried acting cute, but he totally ignored me.... I got mad and asked him: "What did I do wrong?" Hubby stared at me and said: "Can't you just give in to her once? We couldn't possibly die eating from a bowl however unclean it is, right?" After that incident, for a long period of time, mother did not speak to me and you can feel that there is a very awkward feeling hanging in the house. During that period of cold war, hubby was caught in dilemma as to who to please.



In order to stop her son from having to prepare breakfast, mother took on the "all important" task of preparing breakfast without any prompting. At the breakfast table, mother would look at hubby happily eating his breakfast and cast that reprimanding stare at me for having failed to perform my duty as a wife. To avoid the embarrassing breakfast situation, I resorted to buying my own breakfast on my way to work. That night, while in bed, hubby was a little upset and asked me: "LD, is it because you think that mum's cooking is not clean that's why you chose not to eat at home?" He then turned his back on me and left me alone in tears as feeling of unfairness overwhelmed me. After some time, hubby sighed: "LD, just for me, can you have breakfast at home?" I am left with no choice but to return to the breakfast table.



The next morning, I was having porridge prepared by mother and I felt a sudden churn in my stomach and everything inside seem to be rushing up my throat. I tried to suppress the urge to throw up but I could not. I threw down the bowl, rushed into the washroom, and vomited everything out. Just as I was catching my breath, I saw mother crying and grumbling very loudly in her dialect, hubby was standing at the washroom doorway staring at me with fire burning in his eyes.. I opened my mouth but no words came out of it, I really did not mean it.



We had our very first big fight that day; mother took a look at us, then stood up and slowly made her way out of the house. Hubby gave me a final stare in the eye and followed mother down the stairs. For three days, hubby did not return home, not even a phone call. I was so furious, since mother arrived; I had been trying my best and putting up with her, what else do you want me to do? For no reason, I keep having the feeling to throw up and I simply have not appetite for food, coupled with all the events happening at home, I was at the low point in my life.



Finally, a colleague said: "LD, you look terrible; you should go and see a doctor." The doctor confirmed that I am pregnant.



Now it became clear to me why I threw up that fateful morning, a sense of sadness floated through that otherwise happy news. Why didn't hubby, and mother who had been through this before, thought of the possibility of this being the reason that day? At the hospital entrance, I saw my hubby standing there. It had only been three days, but he looked haggard. I had wanted to turn and leave, but one look at him and my heart soften, I couldn't resist and called out to him. He followed my voice and finally found me but he pretended that he doesn't know me; he has that disgusted look in his eyes that cut right through my heart. I told myself not to look at him anymore, and hail a cab. At that moment, I have such a strong urge inside me to shout to my hubby: "Darling, I am having your baby!" and have him lift me up and spin me around in circles of joy. What I wanted didn't happen and as I sat in the cab, my tears started rolling down. Why? Why our love couldn't even withstand the test of one fight?



Back home, I lay on the bed thinking about my hubby, and the disgusted look in his eyes. I cried and wet the corner of the blanket. That night, sound of the drawers opening woke me up. I switched on the lights and I saw hubby with tears rolling down his face. He was removing the money. I stared at him in silence; he ignored me, took the bank deposit book and some money and left the house. Maybe he really intends to leave me for good. What a rational man, so clear-cut in love and money matters. I gave a few dried laugh and tears starting streaming down again. The next day, I did not go to work. I wanted to clear this out and have a good talk with hubby. I reached his office and his secretary gave me a weird look and said: "Mr. Tan's mother had a traffic accident and is now in the hospital."



I stood there in shock. I rushed to the hospital and by the time I found hubby, mother had already passed away. Hubby did not look at me, his face was expressionless. I looked at mother's pale white and thin face and I couldn't control the tears in my eyes. My god, how could this happen? Throughout the funeral, hubby did not say a single word to me, with only the occasional disgusted stare at me. I only managed to find out brief facts about the accident from other people. That day, after mother left the house, she walked in dazed toward the bus stop, apparently intending to go back to her old house back in the countryside. As hubby ran after her, she tried to walk faster and as she tried to cross the street, a public bus came and hit her....I finally understood how much hubby must hate me, if I had not thrown up that morning, if we had not quarreled, if....In his heart, I am indirectly the killer of his mother.



Hubby moved into mother's room and came home every night with a strong liquor smell on him. And me, I am buried under the guilt and self-pity and could hardly breathe. I wanted to explain to him, tell him that we are going to have our baby soon, but each time, I saw the dead look in his eyes, all the words I have at the brink of my mouth just fell back in. I had rather he hit me real hard or give me a big and thorough scolding though none of these events happening had been my fault at all.



Many days of suffocating silence went by and as the days went by, hubby came home later and later. The deadlock between us continues, we were living together like strangers who don't know each other. I am like the dead knot in his heart.



One day, I passed by a western restaurant, looking into the glass window, I saw hubby and a girl sitting facing each other and he very lightly brushed her hair for her, I understood what it meant. After recovering from that moment of shock, I entered the restaurant, stood in front of my hubby and stared hard at him, not a tear in my eyes. I have nothing to say to him, and there is no need to say anything. The girl looked at me, looks at hubby, stands up and wanted to go, hubby stretched out his hand and stopped her. He stared back at me, challenging me. I can only hear my slow heart beat, beating, one by one as if at the brink of death. I eventually backed down, if I had stood that any longer, I will collapse together with the baby inside me. That night, he did not come home; he had chosen to use that as a way to indicate to me: Following mother's death so did our love for each other.



He did not come home anymore after that. Sometimes, when I returned home from work, I can tell that the cupboard had been touched - he had returned to take some of his stuff. I no longer wish to call him; the initial desire to explain everything to him vanished. I lived alone; I go for my medical checkups alone, my heart breaks again and again every time I see a guy carefully helping his wife through the physical examination. My office colleagues hinted to me to consider aborting the baby, I told them No, I will not.. I insisted on having to this baby, perhaps it is my way of repaying mother for causing her death. One day, I came home and I saw hubby sitting in the living room. The whole house was filled with cigarette smoke. On the coffee table, there was this piece of paper. I know what it is all about without even looking at it. In the two months plus of living alone, I have gradually learned to find peace within myself. I looked at him, removed my hat and said: "You wait a while, I will sign." He looked at me, mixed feelings in his eyes, just like mine.



As I hang up my coat, I keep repeating to myself "You cannot cry, you cannot cry..." my eyes hurt terribly, but I refused to let tears come out from there. After I hung up my coat, hubby's eyes stared fixed at my bulging tummy. I smiled, walked over to the coffee table and pulled the paper towards me. Without even looking at what it says, I signed my name on it and pushed the paper to him. "LD, are you pregnant?" Since mother's accident, this is the first time he spoke to me. I could not control my tears any further and they fell like raindrops. I said: "Yes, but it’s ok, you can leave now." He did not go, in the dark, we sat, facing each other. Hubby slowly moved over me, his tears wet the blanket. In my heart, everything seems so far away, so far that even if I sprint, I could never reach them. I cannot remember how many times he repeated "sorry" to me. I had originally thought that I would forgive him, but now I can't. In the western restaurant, in front of that girl, that cold look in his eyes, I will never forget, ever. We have drawn such deep scars in each other's heart. For me, it's unintentional; for him, totally intentional. I had been waiting for this moment of reconciliation, but I realized now, what had gone past is gone forever and could not repeated.



Other than the thought of the baby inside me that would bring some warmth to my heart, I am totally cold towards him, I no longer eat anything he buys for me, I don't take any presents from him and I stopped talking to him. From the moment I signed on that piece of paper, marriage and love had vanished from my heart. Sometimes, hubby will try to come into the bedroom, but when he walks in, I will walk out to the living room. He had no choice but to sleep in mother's room. At night, from his room, I can hear light sounds of groaning, I kept quiet. This used to be his trick; last time, whenever I ignore him, he would fake illness and I will surrender and find out what is wrong with him, he would then grab me and laugh. He has forgotten that last time I cared for him and am concerned because there was love, but now, what is there between us? Hubby's groaning came on and off continuing but I continuously ignored him.



Almost every day, he would buy something for the baby, infant products, children products and books that kids like to read. Bags and bags of it stacked inside his room till it is full. I know he is trying to use this to reach out to me, but I am no longer moved by his actions. He has no choice but to lock himself in his room and I can hear his typing away on his computer keyboard, maybe he is now addicted to web surfing but none of that matters to me anymore. It was sometime towards the end of spring in the following year, one late night, I screamed because of a sudden stomach pain, hubby came rushing into the room, it’s like he did not change and sleep, and had been waiting for this moment. He carried me and ran down the stairs, stopped a car, holding my hand very tightly and kept wiping the sweat off my brow, throughout the journey to the hospital. Once we reached the hospital, he carried me and hurried into the delivery suite. Lying on the back of his skinny but warmth body, a thought crossed my mind: In my lifetime, who else would love me as much as he did?



He held the delivery suite door opened and watch me go in; his warm eyes caused me to manage a smile at him despite my contraction pain. Coming out of the delivery room, hubby looked at our son and me, eyes tear with joy and he kept smiling. I reached out and touched his hand. Hubby looked at me, smiling and then he slowly collapsed onto the floor. I cried out for him in pain... He smiled, but without opening that tired eyes of his... I had thought that I would never shed any tear for him, but the truth is, I have never felt a deeper pain cutting through my body at that moment. Doctor said that by the time hubby discovered he had liver cancer, it was already in terminal stage and it was a miracle that he managed to last this long. I asked the doctor when he first discovered he had cancer. Doctor said about 5 months ago and consoled me saying: "Prepare for his funeral."



I disregarded the nurse's objection and rushed home; I went into his room and checked his computer, and a suffocating pain hits me. Hubby's cancer was discovered 5 months ago, his groaning was real, and I had thought that.... the computer showed over 200 thousand words he wrote for our son:



“Son, just for you, I have persisted, to be able to take a look at you before I fall, is my biggest wish now... I know that in your life, you will have many happiness and maybe some setbacks, if only I can accompany you throughout that journey, how nice would it be. But daddy now no longer has that chance. Daddy has written inside here all the possible difficulties and problems you may encounter during your lifetime, when you meet with these problems, you can refer to daddy's suggestion..



Son, after writing these 200 thousand words, I feel as if I have accompanied you through life journey. To be honest, daddy is very happy. Do love your mother, she has suffered, she is the one who loves you most and also the one who loves me most..." From play school to primary school, to secondary, university, to work and even in dealing with questions of love, everything big and small was written there.



Hubby has also written a letter for me:



"My dear, to marry you is my biggest happiness, forgive me for the pain I have caused you, forgive me for not telling you my illness, because I want to see you be in a joyful mood waiting for the arrival of our baby...My dear, if you cried, it means that you have forgiven me and I would smile, thank you for loving me...These presents, I'm afraid I cannot give them to our son personally, could you help me to give some of them to him every year, the dates on what to give when are all written on the packaging."



Going back to the hospital, hubby is still in coma. I brought our son over and place him beside him. I said: "Open your eyes and smile, I want our son to remember being in the warmth of your arms..." He struggled to open his eyes and managed a weak smile. Our son still in his arms was happily waving his tiny hands in the air. I press the button on the camera and the sound of the shutter rang through the air as tears slowly rolled down my face..... A fatal misunderstanding and the person who loves me the most in this world is gone forever..."Cruel misunderstandings one after another disrupted the blissful footsteps to our family. Our originals intend of having Mother enjoy some quiet and peaceful moments in her remaining years with us went terribly wrong as destiny's secret is finally revealed at a price, everything became too late."



This is a true story.



LEARNING POINT - DO NOT EVER HOLD ON TO OFFENCES!!!


I am totally speechless, this story brought tears to my eyes as I read through each line eager to know what would happen next. It truly showed the devastating power of grudges and anger! Simple humility and communication would have resolved most of the problems in that story, as well as patience..... This story has really touched my heart and life as a whole and it has stimulated a paradigm shift. Though it is very sad, it is also very refreshing to know that from today, I can consciously start to live a life free of grudge. People please let's live a life devoid of grudge. Communication is key.



“I'm Feeling Angry" When you are angry, the first positive step is to admit to yourself that you are angry. Say aloud, "I'm feeling angry." The second step is to ask God to help you handle your anger in a positive way. "Lord, help me to do what is right and good with my anger." The third step is to ask, "Did someone sin against me?" If so, the biblical answer is to lovingly confront the person and seek reconciliation.



On the other hand, if you are angry simply because something happened that irritates you, ask "What can I learn from this experience?" If the other person habitually arrives late for your appointment, perhaps you can talk with them and negotiate change. Thus the anger has served a positive purpose. God wants to teach you how to handle your anger in a godly way.



When you are angry, be sure to get the facts before you take action. You hear your spouse tell someone on the phone, "I'll be there tomorrow night." You know that tomorrow night is your date night, so you get angry. Before you storm in and say something harsh, take time to ask, "Did I hear you promise someone to do something tomorrow night?" Your spouse says, "Yes, I told mom I'd bring her blanket by. I thought we could do it either before or after we go out to eat."



Your anger subsides because you took time to get the facts. Often we jump to conclusions about what someone said or did, and we accuse them in anger. We ruin a perfectly good evening because we failed to ask questions.



Take greatest care and live on

Chilled @ IndoChine

Met up with JingWen & EngSang yesterday at Orchard.
Kinda a belated celebration of JingWen and me.
And also catching up.

EngSang suggested to go IndoChine because the liveband attracted her.
We had our dinner there too.
I had this Angel's Hair Pasta.
But to me, its not pasta lea..
To my surprise, the food is nice!
And EngSang let her tried the Chickenball for her dish, and i love it too! *drools*



After our eating our dinner, we ordered 2 alcoholic drinks - Sex on the beach and Long Island Ice Tea.
I think sex on the beach is nice.



Drinking and enjoying the band.
But the shitty thing is, there's no fan/wind.
And the 3 of us were sweating like hell~



Anyhow, we left the place at ard 10.40pm+.
I reached home at ard 11.30pm.



Belated bday presents from Jingwen.
A Necklace with 2 ways of wearing. Cool huh~


Belated bday presents from EngSang.
Heard from them both that its quite popular from 女人我最大。

Thank you, my dear girls.
I love it! =D

Black and White World

"you dont need to pity them, because they dont pity us."
I said these to Shari because she's pitying the OAs. -.-

The older i grow, the more i know.
The more i know, the more pessimistic i'll be.
The more pessimistic i'll be, the more unhappy i am..
Hais..


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Late for work today, reach at 9am..
I am now feeling very tired and sleepy.
Yesterday went out with EngSang and Jingwen.
Will try to update the post with photos today.
Gonna help sis with stuff oso. ~_~

VENT IT ALL HERE!

I serious dont feel like complianing.
Who dont complaint about work?
Who likes to work?
Its because of money then we'll have to see people face.

That feeling is so sux, if you have to kio people shit to do.
Fucking hell~
The person who left told me no need to compile the documentation.
Then in the end, now customer say need.
Now i have to go around digging for the certs.
This is so sickening.
Now cos of docs issue, customer hold payment.
And so, this irritating person have to come ask me every week for the status.

I am not only handling this project only loh..
Dunno my shang bei zi qian him what sial?
Now he left already i still have to kio the shit. Knn~
Arghhhh..
Almost cried sitting at my desk juz now..

The other fucker better stop throwing work to me!

Veron say endure.
Yah, but have i not endure for long already?
Nnnnghhh, cant wait for Oct.
Its still like long way~ Hais.

Stupid computer!

The internet connection at my workplace sux to the core man!
Hotmail account cannot check email.
Facebook got problem logging in.
The Outlook MS 2007 pain my eyes~
And lag the computer~
Affected my mood to work. =/
Boring~


3 more days away to weekend... =(

許慧欣 - 和你一起

擦上你最喜歡　紅色那罐
浪漫得蘋果香
貼近你的胸膛　閉著眼想象
聞你身上的香

你的一舉一動　曖昧動作
在暗示些什麼
有時左有時右　我無法捉摸
就這樣著了魔

也許月色太迷霧
讓我忘了忐忑不安得心情
現在只想和你一起
嗯　搭拉拉　欣賞今晚的風景
好想時間就此暫停
嗯　搭拉拉　讓這感覺延續

你握緊我的手　貼近心窩
止不住的感動
旋轉親吻低頭　我無法捉摸
就這樣著了魔

也許月色太迷霧
讓我忘了忐忑不安得心情
現在只想和你一起
嗯　搭拉拉　欣賞今晚的風景
輕輕的依偎在一起
嗯　搭拉拉　幸福滿心洋溢

好想時間就此暫停
嗯 搭拉拉　讓這感覺延續
耳邊輕響起這首歌　噓
幸福滿心洋溢

Movie + Steamboat

Movied with dear yesterday.
Tried the Filmgarde cinema at Iluma.
Watched the show Drag Me To Hell.



The theatre is really big and very cold~
Thanks pig for his jacket. ^-^


As for the show, what can i comment?
Its really a horror show.
But when i saw the trailer, its not scary loh..
Its really scary, due to the sound effect in the threatre and also I heard scream from other people.
Also, there are unexpected parts where you got frightened.
Its really gross. Go watch and you will know what i mean.
My opinion, its scarier than Coming Soon.
I blamed dear cos he wanted to watch this movie and i got really scared. LOL!

Horror rating: 4/5.

After which, we walked awhile in Iluma.
Dear got into the shop called Recoil because he saw 3/4 pants that he likes.
I recommand him the pattern of the pants which i feels it nice.
And also i got him a button up shirt as a present for our anni. =)

Then we went to eat steamboat at Liang Seah Road.
The place where they are a lot of steamboat coffeeshop.








What a face~ ;p

Food was nice and we ate really full.
I love the fried mantou~
After which, i took 851 back home.

SingTel BroadBand on Mobile Youth Plan!

As technology keeps on upgrading, and now we have wifi/wlan on mobile technology like Handphone/Iphone, Itouch, PSP..
Wouldnt you love to get connected everywhere you go?
However, not every places do have free access of Wifi for you like McDonald.
Now Singtel let u stay connected wherever you go!
Isnt it cool?

A place that i would love to get connected is the park near my house, Selatar Reservoir.








With my Itouch, i could surf the net, listen music and also relax at such a nice place.
Its one throw kill 3 birds yah. ;p




"Live Life Online Anywhere with SingTel BroadBand on Mobile Youth Plan!"
Visit http://www.blogger.com/www.singtel.com/youth for more info.

Photography - Beauty Of Nature

天气晴朗的今天早上，我拿着相机到我家附近的实里达蓄水池去寻早灵感。
阳光很强、天气很热。但是也带来凉凉的微风。
耳里听着我最爱的S.E.N.S音乐。很属情。
眼睛放大看着周围。脑力想着最好的镜头。
手上不停的拍着照片。

我喜欢到哪里。
因为哪里很平静。
但是哪里也带来一些回忆。
是一个又爱又恨的地方。

Take a Break~ ;)

Massage Massage~~

After work at 6.30pm, Sheau Wei and I went to eat dinner at the coffeeshop near our workplace. After which, we went for foot and shoulder massage. Phew~
Feeling is kinda good.
But shoulder massage was rather a pain one. HAHA!
Uncle use too much force liao.
Plus my left side shoulder is already sore.
Overall was good.
Next time might go again to relax. =)

Cabbed back home after that~

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PEOPLE PLEASE PLEASE DO NOT ANYHOW PASS MY HP NUMBER TO THOSE PRUDENTIAL OR OTHER COMPANY PEOPLE!!!
I REALLY HATE THESE KIND OF CALLS.
I MEAN IT AH!
THANK YOU FOR YOUR COOPERATION!!!

蔡依林 - 我的依賴

I am falling in love with this song. =)
The lyrics is just so nice.
Romantism~ =)

I AM CRAVING FOR KBOX!!!




地震的夜晚 趕來作伴
重感冒的凌晨 煮著稀飯
這個讓我哭過的人多麼溫暖
我感謝我們不完美 卻坦白自然
我們從牽手放手 又牽手 走過來
願意為更懂你的心 Spending all my life
每當情緒像海 你只抱我 從不催我講出來
我就明白 你是我的依賴


地震的夜晚 趕來作伴
重感冒的凌晨 煮著稀飯
這個讓我哭過的人多麼溫暖
我感謝我們不完美 卻坦白自然
我們從期待失落 又期待 走過來
願意為一起看未來 Spending all my life
每當變成習慣 生活太淡 總有感動的意外
我就明白 你是我的依賴


就算是幸福都由老天在管
只借不送 我還是不肯還 用真愛耍賴


我們從日出日落 又日出 走過來
願意為愛你去忙碌 Spending all my life
每當命運變幻 需要狂歡 需要流淚 你都在
我就明白 你是我的依賴
我們明白 愛是互相依賴

Have you ever wonder what is HAPPINESS?

你有没有曾经想过，什么是快乐？

快乐是。。。

花时间陪在你最爱的人的身边？
花钱花在你想要的东西？
花时间在做你喜欢做的事？
旅行？

不管想做什么总是有限制。

长越大越不快乐。 =(
唉、好怀念那些无忧无虑的日子啊。

Weekend

Friday night, i said that i'll be watching the show, Butterfly Effect: Revelation.
Well, the show is not bad.
Though the scene has some gore.
The show end with a twist which is quite unexpected.
Haha, i quite like the show. =)


Woke up the next day.
Dear said that he wanna eat Astons for dinner.
I told him that that restaurant was intro-ed to me by one of my friends loh.
I wanna bring him to eat for his birthday that time actually~ HAHA!

We went Bugis for a walk.
Then headed down Suntec for the dinner at Astons Specialities.
The queues was really long~
Which proves that the food is nice.







Marvalous Cream at City Link!


Ordered the banana + chocolate flavour.
I am so in love with the belgium chocolate~
Its so YUMMY~



Back to his house.
Again, movie for the night.
We watched The Ruins.

About this show, i really dunno what to say about it.
Because throughout the show, i dunno what its really talking about.
And gore gore gore...
Well, the ending sux! -.-



And today.
We had KFC for lunch.
Ate super full~
Now, i cant even eat my dinner. -.-
Back home at around 7pm.



WHY!?
Why the time pass so fast sial.
Monday tomorrow~
Not looking forward to it. =/

Finally Weekend!

Its finally weekend.
Mon to Fri = 5 Days
5Days x 24hrs = 120hrs
120hrs x 60mins = 7200mins
7200mins x 60secs = 432000secs

A torturing 432000secs~
Nah not really lah..
Only torturing me at work.. -.-


CAN I QUIT MY JOB?
Sibei sian..
Sibei buey tahan with the work sial.
But juz got to endure till 19 OCT 09.
4 more months..

Gonna start hunting for jobs already.. :S



PIZZA + Home entertainment (Movie) later at dear's house.
Maybe watching Butterfly Effect: Revelation.
Nowadays, i am addicted to Hawaiian pan pizza from Pizzahut. Hee~
Pineapple will be throw to dear. :p

Kk till here~
Ciao.

Short meetup

After work, met up with Veron Mama and Yan at Northpoint...
Express Teppanyaki for dinner.
After which, went shop shop around for awhile.
The girls bought some fake eyelashes.
Veron wanna try it for tomorrow ROM.
So planned to go over to help her makeup.
But Yan, again left early..!!!
Stayed at Veron's house not even 30mins, her mum came to fetch her.
Idiot.. Forever never change.
Leopard never change its spot.
No wonder today she wore leopard bags and shoes. =/

Therefore, me alone continue to stay at her house.
Figuring how to make up and all. LOL!
I was supposed to help but like 越帮越忙 lea.. =(
In the end, she do it herself.
Done making over at ard 11pm.
Took photos~~ =D
She wore her bridal gown just for me. Hehe~
Too bad for Yan never saw le..


Pretty mama.. =D




Argh, i look so damn shag. =(







AS FOR THE ANNOUNCEMENT!
I am a god ma of 2 princesses. =D
Hope you get what i mean. ^0^





Tomorrow, she's gonna be officially Mrs. Chua already.
Our da jie da in the group, first to get engage. Hoho~
I'm happy for her, really.
Hope she will be happy too. =D
Xoxo to my dear Veron Lo!

Family Gathering

Hoho~
Family gathering is so nice. (:

Dinner with Grandma, Grandpa, Mum, Dad, Bro and Sis~
Sort of mother's day celebration tat dad wanna give for grandma.
Every year, we will have this.

We seldom really talk to each other.
Due to we all grown up, have our own time for our own stuff.

I always love to hear from mum and dad talking our us when we were young.
There's always funny incident that we wouldnt know.
Today, my bro kanna say.
And with my bro and sis, we can chat anything under the sun. LOL!
Really anything, BGR and all. Wahaha~
Its really fun sometimes. =)

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I am so excited to hear Mui mama result on her twins tomorrow~~
Boyboy? or Girlgirl? or BoyGirl? :O

Luck is just not on my side. =(

Failed today TP again.
2nd attempt.
Circuit sux!
I guess i was feeling too nervous today.
But total point improved than the 1st time.
The tester is quite good de loh..
Hais~
Blame it all on myself. =(

Oh well..
I will try my best on my 3rd attempt!
Jiayou bah~