Biggest Regrets?

I chanced upon an interesting video on Facebook the other day.

In the video, a chalkboard was placed on a street in New York City asking strangers to write their biggest regret.
After watching, I thought to myself, what is my biggest regrets?
After pondering for awhile, I can't really think of any biggest regrets as of now.

In the past, I made a lot of impulse decisions and then regretted, especially selecting a course to study.
The lucky thing is that I finally found the right course to study and is progressing to Term 5.
Few months more to completion!
Even though. its hard and I always felt like giving up sometimes, I know that its always bitter first then sweet thereafter.

Same goes to taking my driving license.
I failed so many times but still gotten the license in the end.
I feel really lucky that I didn't give up halfway.

Actually, many a times, I do things and stop halfway.
So I guess, next, I would like to progress on learning keyboard, piano or taking up language lessons. :p

In a nutshell, I believe that if one keeps on trying hard, you will succeed in the end.
So DO NOT GIVE UP! :)

Watch the video here.

End of January 2016

好像一眨眼，时间过得非常快。
我们又来到了第一个月最后的一天。

回顾这31天里，模模糊糊好像并没发生什么事。
我也不知道我的时间是怎么过的。
想想好像就是工作上课下课回家做一点作业睡觉。
周末就配一下G就回家赶作业？不然就是陪家人朋友？好像是吧。。
偶尔会懒一下就看看韩剧。现在非常迷Oh My Venus!
超危险的！因为我一开始看就很想一直接下去看。
但也得控制自己因为我现在只剩下两个星期就要交作业了。。。
一想到就头大。
最好是可以向以往的顺利通过。

啊~ 还有多一个星期就是华人新年了。好快！
我觉得我学会了舍弃。
舍得放弃掉我的旧爱。。
那些陪伴过我的一些东西，我也一一的施舍给别人，捐给Salvation Army。
有些东西收了也没用，收了太多也增添烦恼，还要找位置放。
就像做人一样，心事太多增添烦恼。
不如放下空出那些无聊的事，会开心一点对吧？

前天我去染了新发色。
Ombre pink at the bottom which I did, almost the same, in 2012.
I hope the people in office will not give me a weird look tomorrow. :p





趁年轻，疯狂一下。
好啦，就暂别了~

Concluding 2015

2015 wasn't a very smooth journey for me.
I understand that there are ups and downs every year.
As I read my past summary of the year, this year seems to be the worst year of my 28 years of living.
I struggled too much with life, work and school.

At one point, I feel that everything seems crumbling down on me.

The only strength that I got was from working and studying to numb myself. 

Others seems surreal to me.

I hoped that everything is unreal so that I won't suffer.
Perhaps it's my fate to make me learn a lesson from these.
Well, luckily I got up my knees and brought myself forward.

I just felt that I got to help myself because no one can help me.

"You are a strong and independent woman" and "You can live without anybody", that's what my dad and Steph said to me this year.

So I guess I'll take that as words of encouragement for me.

Something positive this year is that I finally set foot in Japan!
My dream destination and I love Japan so much!
Hokkaido is really a beautiful place to be in!
My Hokkaido travelogue will be up next. :p
Other than that, I also traveled to Bandung, a brand new experience.
Looking forward to the family trip next year that already been booked few days ago.
Really excited about it because it's been so long (maybe about 10 years) since we had a family trip.
And hopefully, able to go Finland in the last quarter of 2016 too.

And since I got proposed, I guess wedding bells should be ringing soon?
However, I guess it's still better to take things slower.
Since our house will be in 2017/2018.
Honestly speaking, I'm not very ready for next stage yet.
I think I am very 矛盾。
Well, I guess come what may.

Regarding my school...

Although I had a very hard time struggling with my assignment, I am glad that I really learn a lot.
I am able to relate some of my studies to the business operation, which is a good thing.

Collected my result slip few days ago and I am relieved that I was able to progress to Term 4!
Happy to know that my course mates progressed with me too.
Next, we'll be looking forward to graduate together! :D
So yesterday, I started my first lesson for Term 4.
Anyway, hard work really paid off and money well spent.
Most importantly, I am left with 8 more months to get that valuable certificate!

Oh, I feel that I am writing better in blog, as in expressing myself in words and my language used. Do you think so? :p
I hope I am...

In hindsight, everyday is an important lesson to learn which in turn makes me be a better person.

Year 2016 will be the last year that I'll be in my twenties.
Don't really want to set so much resolution this time.
Last year, out of 6 resolutions, only accomplished 1 or 2.
Hence in 2016, I look forward to a better me.
I hope to be more positive and confident in myself. :)

Lastly, I wish you have a great year ahead too!
Happy New Year~~!!


就把那些不美好的美好锁在心中的抽屉里，让那些悬疑慢慢淡化在记忆里。

你有没有过…

前阵子我把一件事情一直提醒自己在一个时候要做。

一直提醒着…提醒着… 但错过了要做的日子。

被提醒到的时候，忽然觉得可能其实那件事其实好像也没什么放在心上。

你有没有过这样的感觉呢？

Busy December

Gonna have a busy busy December!
Lots of meet up with friends, lots of events happening.
I am very very excited for these to happen.
This December gonna be a good one. :)

Time No Enough

2 more days to December.

4 more weeks to school starts.

33 days more to a new year.

During the past 2 weeks break, I guess I haven been very fruitful.

However, at least I am able to have a good rest.

I have been coloring, watching dramas and plays the keyboard (心血来潮的).

Still not playing very well but at least I gets the melody out, which I am quite good at it. :p

Other than these, I hope to get my Taiwan trip post out by this year but I kept procrastinating.

I know I have been neglecting this blog. D;

Anyway, December's gonna be a really really busy month for me with so many meet up and occasions.

I gonna have good time management to juggle with my life and this space.

Nothing much to update anyway.

Everyday, we are have things that constantly occurring.

Be it ups and downs, surprises, etc, one needs to be strong and life still goes on.

Summary of Bandung Trip 2015

Hello! I just got back from a short getaway in Bandung; Indonesia.
Just wanna write down a short summary of this trip.

Overall, the 4D3N trip was not bad.
Many first experiences during this trip like first time to Volcano area, horse riding, drank horse milk and ate many good food.

I've also learnt something in this trip and that is we just got to be grateful for what we had in Singapore.

Going to a lower class country, I see many people struggling for living and to make money for a living.

I saw a kid as young as 4 or 5 years old, selling tissue paper on the road side.

But what can they do? They need money for living.

I seriously don't know how much he can make a day but it is a dangerous job.

I also see many things that Singapore doesn't have. 

People in the lower class of Indonesia, still riding a horse wagon to travel from places to places.

My tour guide told us that he is happy being a Indonesian despite having a corrupted government.

However, why do Singaporean still feel unhappy when we have a better government?

Sometimes, I feel that Singaporean needs to go outside of their comfort zone, to explore the world, to feel others then you'll know how grateful you are.

By the way, the tour guide that took us around for the whole trip is knowledgeable and nice guy.
During the long car ride, he chatted a lot.
However, because BF and I are man of few words, so most of the time we just answered "okay", "um" or nod and it cuts off the conversation.
Well, we did try to talk so that the trip won't be a boring one.
Most probably, we are one of the boring couple that he has taken. LOL!

Anyhow, good experience in Bandung.
Probably the next time I go back would be just for food and shopping.
But in the long run, no plan for this yet, since we covered almost all of it already.
I'll blog more about it later on. :)

P/S: Email me if you want the contact for this tour guide for your trip. Recommended!

Reflection

I attended the 2nd day of leadership program today and I just want to reflect on what happened.

Honestly, after Day 1 session, I dread going to the program.
I worried that I need to speak in front of everyone and I hate to voice out.
I am someone who doesn't like to be the center of attraction with familiar people.
For what I meant is to voice out during a meeting or a group discussion.
I am not a confident person and can't really articulate well maybe due to language issue.
Furthermore, with the topic that I am unfamiliar with, I am even more afraid to speak up.
I am always envy people who can do it effortlessly.
However, sometimes I just need to deal with it when there is a need.

Today I was being pointed to speak when the coach asked "who have I not heard yet".
So, one of the sales called out my name.
In my heart, I was like "OMG! Kena sabo~".
Luckily, the coach gave me a chance to delegate so I called back the sales to answer it.
Still, at the end of the day, I tried my best to speak up and earned encouragement from everyone.

“All change is hard at first, messy in the middle and gorgeous at the end”.
I guess I just got to step out of my comfort zone and find my courage.

It's like you never try you never know.
This gonna be one of my 2016 resolution.

And thanks my colleagues and the coaches for the encouragements. :)

船到桥头自然直?

是不是每件事，到了最后都会平复，可以解决？

感觉做什么事情都没有意义。
此人存在着，是为了什么啊？
人生意义何在？
读书意义何在？
工作意义何在？
非常空虚、无奈。

War fighter

Fighting a war at work.
Fighting a war with my assignment.
Fighting a war with my inner self.
Struggling in every way... :(

七年

我和这个男人在今天度过了我们的第七年。

我觉得这是一段很平凡的感情。

Not much ups not much downs.

其实我也不知道我们到底是怎么度过到今天。

尽管我们拿了屋子，我还是偶尔还是会想他到底是不是我的未来。

我可能就是这么没安全感吧。

我们一起跨过了青春时期到现在的成熟时期。

其实我的思想也变了很多。

可能就是周遭的环境让我有了变化。

曾今有不好的想法，但是我就是我，总爱把那些想法给推掉。
只能将就吧。

有人问过我，我是否要过着这样的平凡生活？

如果我继续这段感情，那我就必须接受那种生活。

其实我也非常矛盾。

或许平凡也能获得一种稳定吧。

七年之痒，这个咒语应该不会发生在我身上吧？

短暂的二月

二月是一整年最短的月份。

在这短暂的二月里似乎发生满多事。

虽然觉得这个月好像 not very productive, 但始终还是 strike off do to list 里的两个项目.

那就是做了身体检查还有昨天死硬着头皮去看了Degree courses.

身体状况良好。只是得靠药控制一些状况。

看的Degree courses也不错。很有可能会去报名课程。

但如果要一开始读书的话就会牺牲掉满多东西吧。。。

这次也不可以中途又放弃！

还是得度过自己那个难关，往好的方向想。

这艰难的旅程，我得加油啊～

Baby Steps

Its the last day of January today.
Minus off some hiccup for this month, I guess so far so good for me.

I finally finished reading 'The Miraculous Journey of Edward Tulane' which I got it last year April from Sheauwei.
Luckily, it doesn't took me a year to finish it.
Last week, after contemplating for very long, I bought Fifty shades of Grey series to read.
So few days ago I started reading Chapter one.
Hopefully, I won't take very long to finish reading the 3 books. :)

Other than that, I am trying to be a better person for this year.
Quoted "Everything is hard before it is easy", which I saw on Instagram.
For me, I am trying to live out of my usual comfort zone, trying to change some bad habits to a good one.

As for today, I went to take corporate photo which turn out nice.
I am very happy with it. :)

Counting down to 11 more months to a new year.
I am looking forward to many changes in me this year.
がんばってね！

心烦意乱

愛情可以有多長 微笑可以有多假
我撕開了包裝 還可以退還嗎

望著飛蛾在拍打 精疲力盡的翅膀
找不到一扇窗 能逃出這天堂

是誰為愛 說著美麗的謊話
是誰抵抗不了 想飛的渴望
時鐘好慢 而永遠好長 這樣好嗎
我翻來覆去 睜著眼到天亮

一旦得到了對方 愛就停止了生長
我看得到我們 十年後的模樣

這個世界那麼大 哪裡能痛哭一場
你不會知道我 對自己多失望

是誰為愛 說著美麗的謊話
是誰抵抗不了 想飛的渴望
時鐘好慢 而永遠好長 這樣好嗎
我翻來覆去 睜著眼到天亮

我們沒有 自己想像的偉大
也擋不住 時間對愛的謀殺
誰把承諾變成了懲罰 走開好嗎
我怕我歇斯底里地說真話 我們何必這樣

為了罪惡感留下
為了罪惡感留下
何必這樣

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这几天一直repeat这一首A-Lin的罪恶感。
I can totally relate this song to how I feel.

心情很烦躁，心很乱。

那天，我才发现其实一切并不好。

好像只是我在追着跑，感觉疲惫了。

回头看，是不是好像只有我一个人。
Maybe I was blinded.

如果可以回到过去。。。。

Ending 2014

Hello!
Today is the eve of New Year which is the last day of 2014!
This year, I feel that I am not very productive on my blog.
As compared to the previous years, the number of posts that I wrote declined a lot.
Not sure if because I don't want to share my life much or its just because I'm just plain lazy. #blameAging

So I just read back the past 1 year post which seems like I just wrote it yesterday.
I seems to write a post every year on 31 Dec which is a good thing that I make a point to summarize the whole year up in a post. :D

This year has been okay.
Health hasn't been quite good.
I felt so sick (with flu and fever) a few time in a year.
I guess I'll have to go for health screening soon since the last time I did was in 2012.

Firstly, I am happy to survive in my current company for almost a year now!
12 Jan 2015 will be official date for completing 1 year since I started on 13 Jan 2014.
I have never thought I could survive this long but I guess after you are familiar with something, you can managed it well.

Secondly, I gotten a new family member in the house but also lost one.
I guess grandpa is good up there though grandma is still as lonely since the day he left.

Thirdly, I have also traveled to 2 new destination: Boracay and Gold Coast.
It was a good experience I would say even though there's some hiccup during the travel to Gold Coast.
Other than the 2 places, I went back to Taiwan again, not sure if I'm starting to feel bored but I hope I am not.

Lastly, few days ago, I attended the long awaited Jay Chou's concert.
I was very happy since I missed out the last year one.
I always been a fan of his great songs and to listen to his live is really damn shiok lah!
If not for the bad sound system and the leakage of the national stadium roof, I guess everything will be perfect.
In future, I hope to buy a better ticket, it would be more enjoyable! :D

I guess that summarizes up my 2014.

Since I haven made new year resolution for the past 2 years, I guess I should make a few for 2015.

1. I really need to spend wisely and save up for good. STOP BUYING SO MUCH CLOTHING AND MAKEUP PRODUCTS!!

2. Taking up some fitness courses or maybe Japanese language course which I dropped halfway.

3. Sleep early since the best time for the body to rejuvenate is 11pm onwards. I don't want to age faster by sleeping very late.
4. Stop being too calculative even towards my family members. 钱固然重要但伤了和气就不应该了。

5. If possible, find a better career prospect.

6. If possible, I might consider a degree though I'm quite reluctant to do but it will be good for my future career.

I guess that's for now so far.

I wish you all a Happy New Year, Happy 2015!

Ending the good 2013~

Sipping a cup of my favorite Starbucks Mocha Frappe, waiting for my boyfriend so that we can have our last 2013 lunch together.

While waiting for him, I shall pen down my thoughts for 2013 as today is the second last day of the year..

2013 is quite an amazing year for me! 

Well, the goods and the bads.
How about you?

Thinking back, I have passed my car license on my 8th attempt in Feburary. Lol!

Not embarrassing though because I know some other people has tried more attempts than me but yet to pass.

I'm happy for myself because one less burden down and I could strike this off my bucket list that been in my resolution for the past years since like 18 years old!

Woah, that been like 8 years back! Lol!

Another bucket list was that I finally went to one of my most wanted to travel destination - South Korea, Seoul in October, Autumn my favorite season, with one of my very good friend. 

It was a trio trip and one of our happiest days in 2013! 

We experienced so much there!
Great memories.

Gotta go back one day for winter season, hopefully~

Oh, and I shall blogged about the trip soon. :p

Anyway, life is not only all good though..

I quit my 3 years career back in May and went on to another company but stayed for like 5 months before leaving them.

I kinda regretted leaving the career that I had for 3years and after leaving, I then can see mostly good things in that company.

However, time could not turn back and I shall move on too..

I cannot count how many interviews I went since then.

Got offered but I rejected, and wanting the offer but I got rejected. Lol~

My life has been playing games with me and I don't know why. Oh well~

Hopefully, I can find a better career in 2014 and got to be a good starting point.

It's the 5th year with boyfriend and finally starting to apply BTO with him. Wtf~

Hopefully we got what we wanted, if not we got to start over again.

And this guy better propose to me one day!!

I hope that I am not selling to him just cause I agreed to apply BTO together, if not then it's really fml~ WAHAHAHA!

So every year just gonna get better!~

I am not sure what will happen and what to expect in 2014.

Let nature take its course?

However for now, I just hope to get a good job to start.

No resolution this time because, I guess I'm getting older.. 

Starting from 2014, I have 3years more to step into the thirties. :S

Shit fml wtf cannot believe it!

By the time, not sure will there still anyone saying that I'm young anymore.. Lol!

Okay that all~

Hope you have a good year ahead!

Happy new year!!! xoxo

随便想想。。。

人生苦短几十年，谁都会面临那一刻。

只是时间的问题。

生离死别 也不过就如此而已

有的人会慢慢被遗忘

有的人会留在某人心中的最深处

如果万一我有什么三成两段，那我会是被谁遗忘或留在心理的最深处呢？

Decision Making

In life, its all about making decision.

Everyday you decides what you want to wear, what you want to eat, what you movie/ drama you want to watch, what you want to do for that day, etc..

Or during the days when you were younger, you went Primary School, deciding which who you want to make friends with, decide you want to get good grades then pass you PSLE, decides which Secondary School you want to go.

After you join Secondary School, you decide with curriculum activity (CCA) you want to join, or what subject you want to take etc.

Then the cycle goes again when you go to Polytechnic or Junior Collage or University..

After graduation, you decides what job you want to work as, where/ which company you want to join..

There I listed down most of the decision making you do in life, crucial and non-crucial ones.

Well, actually what I want to say is that, I sometimes really do hate making decision. I am indecisive when comes to the crucial decision making. Hmm.. maybe even the non-crucial one as well. Heh~

Many a time, I feel that I always make the wrong decision and makes me really regret when I looked back. Not to mention, I had also missed out chances that was given to me. Sigh~

Sometimes, I feel that my dad is a predictor. Or rather, I would say it in Chinese saying "不听老人言，吃亏在眼前。" Which means like "if you don't listen to the older gen, it will be at your disadvantage". Yeah.. I always don't listen to his advice, then it becomes my disadvantage. =/


Oh well.. Sorry for being such a nag today. Its just that I haven been putting thought into words in my blog for the longest time, so pardon me yah..

脆弱

我不知道我是不是个爱哭鬼。
不是说我很喜欢哭，而是很容易就哭了。
其实不是我要的啦，但一触到内心深处，就会哭。
简的来说，我的心比较脆弱吧。
一碰就碎。

记得小六那年，突然间接到公公去世的消息。
我的眼泪就稀里哗啦的流个不停。
虽然和公公的感情不是很亲，但是那时是第一次失去亲人的感觉。
可能那时也还蛮小，所以控制不了自己。
奇怪的是，弟弟妹妹好像也没像我哭的那么惨。

有时候在电视看到不幸人士的节目片断，我也会不轻易的掉泪。
就一些会打动人心的，都会感动到我。

这几天的心情不是说很好啦。
因为爷爷进了医院，而今天已经是第四天了。
看到他在病床上，心里一点都不好受。
平时他在家，我们也很少沟通。
最多他也是问我吃饭了没。

今天进去和妹妹进去病房看他（只限量两个人），因为不想太安静我就找话题说。
但越说越想哭，但是我还是强忍眼泪不流出来。
其实他现在也不能说话因为在靠仪器呼吸，只能对我们比手画脚。

现在最希望他没事，和赶快好起来！
婆婆也很寂寞。
听妹妹说，昨天婆婆说爷爷不在家陪她，她很闷。看电视也看不懂因为爷爷会解释给她听内容。
我听了那翻话都觉得很心酸，眼泪在眼里打转。
妹妹也可以看得出我要哭出来了。

爷爷加油！

心声与感触

容忍的人其實並不笨
只是寧可對自己殘忍 -方铜彬-坏人

Once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out
But if I let you go
I will never know
What my life would be holding you close to me
Will I ever see you smiling back at me?
How will I know if I let you go? -Westlife - If I Let You Go