Breastfeeding Journey

From the start, breastfeeding was not easy but then slowly it got easier.

Sometimes we just need to get use to thing and it will become easier as time goes by.

Remember back then when I was like first or second month postpartum, I kept wanting to stop breastfeeding because I was living a 3hr life.

Then G asked me to set a 6month breastfeeding target.

I think even before the 6th month, I think I got used and stopped complaining about it.

Just that when I need to go out to meet friend or date with G, it will be troublesome as I need to pump every 3-4hour. That was the only hassle.

Fast forward till now, 10month plus postpartum, I am still pumping but dropped to 2 pumps a day.

I stopped direct latching baby on 28 October because I went for my first vaccination.

Didn't want to introduce the antibodies to baby yet, so I am just pumping and keep as stash.

Had been giving him formula and EBM stash that I previously kept. 

Probably can last him till 1 year old or less.

It's fine for me be it breast milk or formula, he has the nutrients and I am more than happy already.

I was previously afraid the middle of the night feeds via bottle will make him not fall asleep after drinking milk because he was latched to sleep when he woke up for milk.

Normally, I will unlatch about 10mins after he drank and fell asleep before 28 October.

However, we have been trying for days now and is happy that he can fall asleep after putting him down.

I can tell that baby just want to wake up to drink milk and luckily he is not attached to boobs.

Guess my previous worries are useless..

I am just worried that if he goes to my mum's place for nap, he will have difficulty sleeping because no spring cot and he would need to be latched to sleep. 

I'll probably just have to babywear him to sleep.

Back to pumping topic, dropping pump to 2 times a day can clearly see the distinct dropped in supply.

The first day when I moved from 3 to 2 times, I could pumped 200ml. 

But the next day, it become 160ml to 170ml.

Now its just 110ml to 120ml within the first week.

I feel pretty sad with the dipped supply but I should see open because  soon I will move to 1 pump a day then says goodbye to breastfeeding in about a month time. 

So I am just pumping whatever I have now.

Words just can't really describe this love-hate relationship with breastfeeding.

I am happy I can supply food to my boy up till now.

Also, really thankful that breastfeeding helps a bit with my weight loss.

So after stop breastfeeding, I gonna control food intake already! Haha..